I'm a Pastor's wife, and mom of one juggling a couple of side jobs, trying to fiercely chase after my call in ministry.
I'm busy. I feel most days, I’m just trying to make it.
You may not be in my exact situation, but I know you know what that feels like. You've been there. Maybe you're there now.
Regardless, you get me.
But, the Lord is asking something from me, something more than just making it. The Lord is continually putting ideas into my heart and opportunities in my path. Calling me out of my current norm, to something more that my normal “busy”.
It’s something more yet I feel unworthy, inadequate, and that someone else could do a better job than me. What do I even have to offer? I’m already juggling many many things, and it’s not like I’m hearing “great job!” Or “so proud of you!” echoing in my ears about all the things I’m currently doing. How can I do more?
Have you been there? You still get me?
There's a woman in the Bible, in John 4, that I like to think gets me too.
The Lady at the well.
This girl is just trying to get through her daily duties. Just trying to get some water for her family, and the Lord asks her for something. It’s something more than just her daily duties.
He just wants some water from her. Water. Jesus is asking her for a drink of water. Something that seems so simple, and yet here is her response:
"How is it that You a Jew, ask for a drink from me, a Samaritan woman?" (John 4:9 emphasis added)
Yes, I know there is more to the story than that, but we are just going to park right here.
All Jesus asked for was water, and she didn't even feel worthy enough to give him water.
She, standing at the edge of the well, drawing her water. She is capable, but doesn’t feel worthy.
She was a Samaritan, and on top of that a woman. She also knew that Jews and Samaritans really weren't the best of friends, so the current circumstances weren't looking so great for her.
So what did she have to offer? She had labeled herself, declared herself unworthy, and let her circumstances determine her truth.
Like me, wondering why I keep putting myself out there. Struggling with the feeling of not being supported or encouraged. Sharing my heart, feeling that I'm not even worthy of this, what do I have to offer? What can I do that someone else can’t do better?
Like you. Wondering how you could possibly add one more thing to your already busy day.
And friend, you can be busy but be busy without purpose. The Lord is calling you to be busy for His purpose.
Whether it be big or small, The Lord is asking something of you.
What is it?
Maybe you don't need to think too deeply to know what that is. Maybe you've known for a while what you need to say yes to. What's holding you back? Labels like The Lady at the well? Self-Doubt negative self-talk like me? Fear, comparison, Current circumstances?
Fear, compassion, self-doubt, negative self-talk, labels? Those are not your truth. Circumstances are not your truth.
The Bible is your truth. The scriptures says you are called, you are loved, you have something to offer. That is the truth.
Take a chance on yourself.
God can and will do anything He pleases, BUT when we align with Him, for Him and obey Him, we give Him the fertile soil to do much much more.
Replace your fake truths with the real truth. Say yes to what The Lord is asking of you.